Currently Listening Ride the Lightning By Metallica Fade to Black see related

Let the Games Begin!!!!!

     Well, this blog will mark the beginning of the "Gaming Blog." However, this blog will have a little more than just the games, so that you all have something to read before having fun. I will make it as interesting as I can.
     I have to tell you one thing first. Saying my life is anywhere close to normal, is an exaggeration. There's been a lot of drama (as usual) the past few months. There's no place, in particular, I can start at this point in time. Though, I will have many blogs regarding certain events, in later blogs. Nevertheless, I think I'm going to take this time and discuss drugs.

     DRUGS . . .  That word brings up so many thought. I never thought that in a span of only seven months, that so many people that I know could fall into them, as heard as these people have. I mean finding out that someone who can be considered a genuine male role model (no names in this blog) has begin to take smaller steps into addiction to one of the worst drugs out there, cocaine. It started with marijuana . . . that angered me a little bit, but, hey, I've done my fair share of experimenting. However, he should past that point. He's getting older, and it seems he's only thinking about himself. Either that or he just doesn't care. I know that he cares about me . . .  oh fuck it, I'll just tell you. The man I'm discussing is my father. My REAL father. It's a little messed up that this man, of fifty-seven, is doing a drug that's highly known for causing heart attack, when he's had two in his life already. Does he not care? Well, if that's the case maybe he shoulf sit, and ponder on what he's doing to not only himself, but his children.
     I could sit here and give some depressing story of how bad my life was with my dad, but almost everyday is giving the same damn story, abd, quite frankly, I've been over it for years now. The truth is, my dad did beat me growing up, and he didn't really care for us kids. So for this, I had no respect for him, and still, to this do, do not have complete respect for him, yet. He's still my father, I love him, and that's all that matters. My father has been a great inspiration, though. He has taught me almost everything I know, when it comes to music. So, with that said, let's get to why I'm here.
     My problem began to arise about June of 2006. I found out that my father had benn smoking marijauna for a very long time. I was infuriated to hear that, especially since he would always complain about money. I gave him my two cents, but went about my way. In late December, I found out from someboy that he has been doing cocaine, recently. WHAT? Ok, wait. Cocaine? I couldn't belive this, and I still don't want to. A man who has had two heart attacks, already. Does he want another one? I can almost garuntee, he won't be as lucky, this time. I don't care what the history has been with my father, but I can't lose him right now. I don't have it in me to lase a father, let alone MY father. I don't know how to really approach him without out getting angry. Is he addicted? When I found out, I would have saind 'no,' but whe I was talking to Jaimie, she pointed out how you know he is.

"He's moody when he's not on it, he takes it whenever he can, and he's being a lot more irresponsible, especially when it comes to you kids."

     When she said that, I didn't want hear it. I guess I'm in denial. I don't know, but whatever it is, I don't like it. It doesn't matter who else takes it, but it's my Dad. Come on, I mean seriously. I have to talk to hime, but unless I have someone like Jaimie walking me through it, I don't think I could do it without getting too angry.
     Anyway, I'll just let you go with one thought. Is it just that easy to throw your life away?

Have fun with the games, and remember they will get better later.

Drew

QUESTION - The word 'Blue' has been used different ways before, but what are your thoughts on the word, no matter how it's used?    MY ANSWER------ I always think lonesome, but what I don't get how depressed does one have to be to be blue, and where it originally came from.

WORD OF THE DAY - SOMBER

QUOTE - "Doubting youself in life, is the closest you may ever get to walking on egg shells." --- Drew Brown Jan. 31 2007

Currently Listening Wicked Sensation By Lynch Mob River Of Love see related

        Ok . . . . . Where to begin . . . I know where. Let's start with HEY EVERYBODY HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? Since this is the first blog in a while I'm not going to get too in depth, but I will say this. Since my last few blogs life has gotten more interesting. Some really good things have happened, and some not so good.
        The friend group that I once held on to so tight, has forced me to loosen my grip. Do not confuse this notion with lost feelings. They've become enthralled with something a little mor "laid back" than I am myself. I still love everyone in the group, I'm just not as, how do I say it . . . dominant. That's a little bit from the truth, but it's the only thing that describes it.
        Now, starting on my next blog, I will begin something that made my blogs so popular in the past. It's kinda like a game, but like any game that I enjoy, thinking is involved. Here's how it's going to go. . . . First off . . . .

QUESTION - I will ask a question. Nine times out of ten, they are opinion based, but every once in a while I will throw trivia questions in there. it is your duty as a reader to give me your opinion, or answer. You will not be judged by myself, and there usually will not a be a right or wrong answer. I simply ask questions that nobody else asks, or questions that don't typically come to mind with an average person.

Word of the day (WOTD) - I will put a word here, and you should try to use this word outside of the xanga realm, or be creative and use it in your answers.

Quote of the Day (QOTD or QUOTE) - This is nothing major, but I usually put a quote up here that I have come up with or heard somebody else say. You can comment on them if you'd like.

      Now, I started this "Game" a long time ago. However, since then, I have seen many re-creations of this. Some were well done, but some were outrageously weak! The first few blogs that I put this on, the "game will be rather light. Once the ball starts rolling, and more people jump on board, then I will make it more fun, insane, and/or deep. So with that in mind, the game will begin very shortly. If you do not understand, just go to my earlier blogs and check out what i've done in the past, to get a better idea. Beware, though, when I wrote the actual blog portion of those, I was going through sever teenage angst.
      Ok, other than that, I don't have much to say except the love of my life, Jaimie Garcia, is the most beauthiful woman in the world!!!!! (Let's see if she's reading)

Later everyone,
 Drew

Ok, so I was tagged. Here We go . . .

Ground Rules: The first player of this game starts with the topic "5 weird habits of yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a xanga entry about their 5 weird habits as well, and state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their names

1.) I get a sick pleasure out of intense pain. I don't know why, but the worse it is, the more I laugh.

2.) I look for drama, or fights, that I can get involved in. I don't start anything (unless needed to), but I just look for it.

3.) I tend to guide people through their troubles, and pretty good I believe. No matter what people think of me, I help if they need it.

4.) I enjoy driving with no hands, and using my leg instead. I always see how far I can go. (longest = roughly 2 miles)

5.) I am obsessive compulsive toward little things. I like to make sure things that have numbers, sizes, or shapes, have to be in a certain order. (Example . . . the pool balls and cues at pool halls)

Well, that's all. Let's see, I'm going to tag Simon, Greg,and three open invitations to anybody. Make sure you coment to let me know.

Drew

THIS ENTRY WAS DELETED BECAUSE THE BLOGGER WAS KIND OF AN IDIOT!!!!!!

Drew

The fun is back!!!

WOTD - ROCK!!!

QUESTION - In your opinon, who is the greates SONG ARTIST in the last 40 years? Explain. --------------- MY ANSWER: Elton John, because he is such a solid player and song writer, I don't think he does anything half-assed.

QUOTE - I just thought of this one . . . "When you wake up, the rest of the world may be asleep, but when you go to sleep the rest of the world may be awake, but no matter what state you're in, you've always got yourself."

**POEM**

Open your eyes, I'm still here
Even when nothing comes in clear
It's a little dark, so turn on the lights
And realize, how hard I've worked, to have you hear tonight
Take three steps and you will see
Just how much you mean to me
Perhaps there's things I'd like to say
But things haven't went our way
I wish so bad to awake next to you
But stay a little longer, 'cause no matter what. . . I'll be true

Currently Listening Sin City Cells see related

STORY TIME

Many of you didn't know me within the realm of 9th and 10th grade so it's time to refresh your memory. Listen to the lyrics of the song "Creep" by radiohead and that's how I felt for the majority of that time period. Not only did I not care about me, but I didn't really care about much else. I had no conscience. I was only compassionate to my family and my best friend Greg. Now, it's only when I started to let people in last year that I began to care, and because I started caring I open myself to hurting. Which sucks, we all know this. Ok, so, something happened recently that wants me to go back to that me. I'm fighting it but it just is getting the best of me, and I don't like as musch asa anyone else here, but I'm trying.

Now, this takes me back about two entries when I said I had a fear of hurting somone else or myself, emotionally or physically. I honostly don't care anymore, but I know some of you do. At times I just want to give up, but that ain't happenin'. So the people who don't want me . . . eh-eh! It's not that easy.

So, everybody, hang on to your shits and giggles. It's gonna be a bumpy ride.

Drew

WOTD - Relentless

QUOTE - "I'll find my own way out for the exit signs are broken, I'll heal my own wounds for there is nobody to nurse me, and I will fight my own fire for there is no way out."